chrizza

...Being overpowered...

2009-12-22T13:29:22Z

Lies cause relationship breakdowns. Lies break people's hearts. Lies aren't healthy, yet everyone constantly lies to each other...

and I'm fed up with it.

For 39 months and 22 days, I've been living a lie. Sure, my parents know I have a boyfriend. Sure, my closest uncle and sister know. My friends definitely know. Beyond my immediate family and close friends, however, no one else know. My cousins don't. My other relatives don't. My family friends don't know about it either. Why? It's because I have to pretend that I'm an "innocent, little" girl who knows nothing about love and doesn't want to fuck up my future because of a boy. Apparently a boyfriend equates to a screwed up life. I don't want to lie anymore- I'm very fed up with it. I'm sick of my parents pretending to their friends that I don't have a boyfriend. I'm sick of the lies they say to their friends and siblings. For fuck's sake, I've been with Sean for over 3 years. How isn't this a serious relationship? We've been planned to get engaged after I graduate, for crying out loud. Isn't this serious enough?

Sure, there are a lot of guys who are dickheads in this world. Yes, there are guys who screw their girlfriends over. Of course, I understand that my parents are worried about my wellbeing and don't want to see me screwed over by guys. I know that they're protective and I'm not saying it's a bad thing- it's not...

but I am close to 22 and it's still not okay for me to tell people I have a boyfriend. Who gives a fuck if people know? It's not like I'm sleeping around. They justify that because a family friend of theirs had a boyfriend and announced it to everyone, he ended up not wanting her and she's being single ever since. They think it happens to everyone who has a boyfriend. It's a different society, it's a different generation. What if she didn't want a boyfriend afterwards? And who listens to rumours anyway? If they're rumours, they shouldn't really affect what we do, right?

This makes me feel crap- it feels after all this time, my parents still do not accept our relationship and still do not accept Sean. I've never invited him to a family function. On the other hand, his parents and family all treat me with love and respect- always welcoming me to their places, always asking how I am, and always inviting me to family events. I even went to his step-cousin's wedding, and I met him twice? They're just so accepting. Why can't my parents break their insecurities and worries and be the same?

I'm sick and tired of obeying my parents all the time. Sure, I don't always think what they do is right, yet I still listen to them. I'm sick of them thinking I'm stubborn and immature- I always do what they say and they don't realise that I'm probably one of the most well-behaved children they've ever known. For god's sake, I even put down pharmacy as my first preference in year 12 because it makes them happy. I always try to make them happy- it makes me sad if they don't...and they deserve it.

But the gold question is- Do they even notice that I'm miserable? :(

chrizza @ 2009-12-04T23:06:00

2009-12-04T12:06:08Z

My favourite song at the moment:-

"Giving everything away for free" by Daniel Merriweather

I'm gonna build a raft, and sit it on the water there hoping she will come,
see the thing I made, what a thing I made
Today I'm gonna sail, even if she doesn't show, the ocean can decide, love is like a wave, love will never fail

Hope she gets here soon
I hope she isn't far away
But if she is I'll sail anyway

Cuz everyday that I love her I kill myself
It happens over and over, there's no one else
And I tried to forget her, but look at me
Giving everything away for free

And when I'm out at sea, I'm gonna write a song for her, I'll sing across the bay,
hoping she will hear, hoping she will hear
I think she's in her car, and just above the motor there,
she'll hear my serenade beckoning her near, beckoning her near

And then she's gonna swim
I didn't build my raft in vain
But if I did, we'll both drown anyway

Cuz everyday that I love her I kill myself
It happens over and over, there's no one else
And I tried to forget her, but look at me
Giving everything away for free

For free, free, drown me
It'll stop the pain
Is my love in vain?
Cuz I knew, I knew she'd never come
Cuz she coun'd bear the ocean, she couldn't stand the waves...

This song is amazing, and it's even more amazing when you get to hear it live. Daniel Merriweather's gig is probably one of the best I've seen and even better than he interacts so well with the audience- it feels like you can connect to him when you barely know the guy. Phrase was one of the two supporting Daniel- he's a rapper but it's not too bad. Also check out Jade MacGrae, she has a great voice.

I've been to quite a few gigs & concerts lately- besides Daniel Merriweather's gig at Prince of Wales, I also had a chance to witness Paolo Nutini's voice and WOW, I was totally swooned by his singing. He's only 22 years old and have performed with Rolling Stones! He's talented and his live music is way better than his cds (which is still very good, I must add). I also went to Britney's concert- and yes, she doesn't have the talented factor like the other two, but my goodness she can perform. Those people who left are either 1) really stupid for not realising she lip syncs or 2) not giving her a chance to perform.

My parents questioned me why I spend so much money on concerts and gigsp or even music in general. They believe it's a waste of time and money. For me, it's a therapeutic process- I listen to music all the time whether or not I'm happy. I can relate to a lot of the songs, and sometimes it helps me deal with my troubles and worries. My friend, Shane, said that talking about his depression and anxiety disorders is a way of overcoming it- for me, listening to music is a way to overcome my worries. I guess I'm having a tough time at the moment- I'm so very confused but I have music to help me out. Listening to live music makes me happy- it's like I can understand the performers/singers and what they've been through.

...I wonder how my parents will react when I'm going to Big Day Out lol.

ps. Garden State- with Zac Braff & Natalie Portman- is probably one of the best movies I've ever seen. It is wonderful and makes you think about life. Check it out.

chrizza @ 2009-11-06T10:15:00

2009-11-05T23:21:50Z

Dear all exams,

I promise I will study tomorrow. Please give me A's anyway.

Thank you,

Christine

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Dear Developing Professional Practice,

I really hate you. I wish you were asexual so you can do the assignment by yourself. Please be generous and let me pass with okay grades.

Sincerely,

Christine

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Dear Counselling Methods 2,

Sorry I have neglected you for the past 7 weeks. You're just so boring. I promise I will look at you after my exams. Say thanks to the educator for the extension.

From,

Christine

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I should get a Phd for procrastination. ARGH.

...WOOHOO!!!!!!!...

2009-09-09T10:02:11Z

WOOHOO!!! I passed my subject, Organisational Behaviour with a HD!!!!! What a relief!!!!

...So much stuff to do, so little time to do them :'(...

2009-08-22T11:41:14Z

Sunday, 23rd August- Terry's (Sean's daddy) birthday lunch in East Bentleigh

Monday, 24th August- Psychiatric Disorders in Healthcare class and tute- 12pm & 1pm; Practice Session at ACAP 5.30pm

Wednesday, 26th August- Have to send Practice session to ACAP Sydney Campus by today

Thursday, 27th August- Central Nervous Disorders class- 9am, Counselling Methods 1 class- 1.30- 4.30pm; Course Sequencing appointment with ACAP Co-ordinator 1pm; Counselling Methods 1 Assignment 2 due; Speech Ball- 7.30pm

Friday, 28th August- Organisational Behaviour Assignment 2 due

Saturday, 29th August- Work 9.30-4.30pm

Sunday, 30th August- Reflective essay for Counselling in Loss due

Sunday, 31st August- Psychiatric Disorders in Healthcare class and tute- 12pm & 1pm

Tuesday, 1st September- 3 YEAR ANNIVERSARY BABY!!!

Thursday, 3rd September- Last Counselling Methods 1 class ever!!!

Friday, 4th September- Lowther Hall's Spring Concert 7pm (I think?)

Saturday, 5th September- Work 9.30-4.30pm

Sunday, 6th September- Organisational Behaviour Discussion Board #4 due, possible Cued Articulation Workshop 10am- 5pm; Father's Day dinner.

Goodbye life for now :'(

...Jen, thought you'd appreciate this.

2009-08-09T02:56:04Z

I was procrastinating (like always) and was on facebook (like always), when I received a comment from a primary school friend. She told me she had a massive clean up in her room and found her friendship book from Grade 5. Apparently, my entry was about marrying rich men and it doesn't matter if the guy isn't rich, I'd marry "another guy" LOL

Apparently I also wrote a poem about this-
"Me no money, me no care
Me just marry a millionaire
If he dies, me no cry
Me just marry another guy"

I just can't stop laughing. I thought of our good o' rich men jokes and had a bit of a giggle. My friend then concluded, "Dude you were like 10 years old, and you were already thinking about hooking up with some rich guy LOL" HAHA superficial much?

Thought that snippet would make you smile during this stressful time called clinics!!

:)

2009-05-10T12:24:47Z

Very content with life at the moment.

Spent heaps of time with the family, lunches with close friends, hugs and kisses from the significant other, made gifts for my mother, great marks at school, passed my first set of clinics, baked cakes, ate heaps of yummy food and recovering from the cold/flu! Not to mention, I have a potential job offer when I graduate!

Looking forward to the next few weeks- day trip, heaps of movies, spending heaps of time with the boyfriend, dinner parties, birthday gatherings, more good food, more time with the family, painting and catching up on assignments and studying.

Life is wonderful at the moment.

chrizza @ 2009-03-22T14:22:00

2009-03-22T03:22:52Z

"I heard that song at my cousin's and it's my favourite...It's nice to be loved." - My grade 5 student, Carmen, on the song "Everytime We Touch" by Cascada

chrizza @ 2009-01-28T17:30:00

2009-01-28T06:33:12Z

I hope he will be okay; I really miss him.

...21 things to do before I turn 21...

2009-01-22T10:41:26Z

In 66 days, I will be turning 21 and by the 66^th day (hopefully with my right calculations- it’ll be on the 29^th of March) I should have accomplished my following 21 deeds that I have set out:

1) Learn to play an instrument (besides the piano)
2) Have $5,000 in my account by the end of March
3) Go on a road trip
4) Have a bubble bath (even if I don’t fit in my bath tub)
5) Learn how to cook my favourite food (this is hard since I love nearly every food there is, so I will learn how to cook my top 3: making sushi (properly), pasta and of course, STEAK)
6) Visit a zoo
7) Convince my other half to take me to Melba
8) Go to a drive-in theatre (Moonlight Cinemas counts as well)
9) Make a full of myself at the karaoke bar
10) Donate my old clothes (which is ¼ accomplished- I gave a lot of my clothes from my baby/toddler/primary school years to my second cousin)
11) Start and finish a painting canvas (my high school teacher would be so proud of me)
12) Leave my old job (goodbye Whatever & maybe Nam’s), and start a new job
13) Watch 2 movies that I have not seen but supposing everyone has. (I’ve decided I’m going to watch “Shawshank Redemption” AND “Breakfast at Tiffany’s”)
14) Buy something I can’t afford-( hellooooo Alannah Hill & every store in GPO)...yet still manage to keep the $5000 in my account.
15) Get another piercing- such a wild child ;)
16) Bring my camera whenever I leave the house and take heaps of photos...even when I’m heading to the milk bar.
17) Have a girl’s day out and do girly things (that includes giving each other pedicures and facials, bake cupcakes, watch girly movies and sing girly songs)
18) Start eating healthy food- so that means starting bringing homemade food to work instead of buying MacDonalds, KFC, sushi, Subway and who knows what...

19) Go to a town/suburb/city I’ve never been to (I finally know where Elsternwick is LOL)
20) Read a classic without falling asleep (excluding Romeo and Juliet- that’s the shiz)
21) Catch up on How I Met Your Mother and learn some of the most memorable quotes so far

:) :) I'm going to make a list of 100 things to do before I die...life would be awesome if all of the deeds are accomplished- I guess, the motto is: Live life to the fullest!

...Busy, busy week...

2008-12-06T13:10:16Z

Today: Work 11-closing time; work on counselling practice sessions & start on assignment

Monday: Organise cardiologist appointment for mum; sort out resumes for uncle

Tuesday: RESULTS!!! FHWEIFHWIEFHWIFHEIOWFHWOFIEHWOI! Work 6-8pm

Wednesday: Work 12- closing time; sister's speech night 8pm

Thursday: Work 1-6pm; Will's dinner; send practice session dvd

Friday: Work 12-7pm; ACAP Dinner and drinks at the Lounge

Saturday: Work 9-4.30pm

Sunday: Work 11- closing time; Linh's 21st bbq party; assignments due

- NB: Fit in a time to watch the coolest movie- Twilight! Rob Pattinson <3

...What's cooking, good looking?...

2008-11-24T00:59:09Z

Wow, it had been ages since I've last posted something on livejournal. Well here I am, at the end of November, waiting for the new year to start. A new year= a new beginning, a new chapter in Christine's life :)

A fair bit has happened in the last few months including:
a) I finally found a new job! I'm working at Whatever in Melbourne Central, and even though I'm only there for the Xmas period I'm excited because I finally have some retail experience. The workplace is great, the staff are nice, I get to deal with interesting customers (totally got abused by a tranny lol) and working there is not boring (too many novelties that talk). I can now officially say I'm a workaholic! Hehe

b) Dad found a new job! I spent ages helping dad in finding a job, and even helped him with his online assessment. He's working at an electrics company in Port Melbourne, which is much closer than his previous job at Somerton. The pay is shit, but it's worth working for the meantime.

c) I'm still studying counselling, and I just handed the most shiteous assignment last night. I have one to complete by Wednesday night. It sucks studying online, because I don't really know anyone. I've made a friend though, and we're meeting up this upcoming weekend. She seems like a lovely person, and she works at a film production company! I was so jealous when she sent a picture of herself and Eric Bana!!!

d) Sean is getting Foxtel on Wednesday, so his home will definitely be my second home from then on haha. We're both doing well; our 27 months is coming up in a week.

e) Have way too many birthday gatherings in the next few weeks- went to Lisa's at Epping, which was a nice catch up with the Lowther girls. I still have a zillion to attend :P

f) Kylie's concert coming up soon, hoorah!

g) Speech Pathology has come to an end for the year, really hope I passed! I'm so worried :( Results on the 9th of December.

h) Julie is getting married on the 2nd of January, so hopefully work doesn't call me in because I want to go to the ceremony! Hoorah!

Holidays

2008-06-30T01:48:09Z

Wow 4 weeks have passed, and now I'm on holidays.

Exam: Well, I hope I passed. There were some tricky questions but I only need 18/50 in the exam to pass. Funny how I aimed for an 80% but after the exam, I just hope for a 50%. After the exam Hong, Missa, Ben and myself celebrated by having Maccas :P

Events: Thao's party was on Saturday, and I did have a great time- despite it being so empty for the first hour and a bit. It was like a reunion- I bumped into people I haven't seen in years. For example, I bumped into Thang- who was my primary school buddie in grade 5! I haven't seen him ever since! I soon found out that he went to St Bernards with Sean, and works on the top level of Thao's optom place. Such a small world!!! We finally had our neuro shots (shotties with the neuro peeps) so that was a funny moment. It was a good night, lots of catching up and drinking- I still manage to have a husky voice after that night, but wasn't smashed like Thao haha

              Art4youth opening night: It was on the Tuesday, after the neuro exam. The exhibition was held at Chapel off Chapel, and it was such a great night. I think we raised about 5000 bucks that night, and hopefully raised some more after a few people wanting to buy some student's artwork (i.e. Sean). I helped out by selling raffle tickets- everyone was giving me weird looks :S We sold about 80 raffle tickets- so about 160 bucks were raised. Auctioning some artworks from practicising artists were great- except we were hoping that the bids were higher. Overall it was a great night :)

            Sex and the City: Lynnie, Sarah, Jen and I went to watch Sex and the City before Jen headed off to Vietnam. It was a fun event :) We had lunch at Groove Train and had our cocktails. Lynnie had less than half and was off her face. She wouldn't stop laughingggggg (and snorting)! The movie was funny- I loved it, it made me think about superficiality (I don't think that's a word but anyhow...) and how the speech group is quite similar to the sex and the city crew in some parts. I watched it the second time with Sean but it wasn't as funny lol.

            Day outing with the ex-Melb High boys (and Lewis's gf, Thao): It was quite a good outing, even though there were some awkward moments when Lewis and Thao were being soppy- I mean it's the first time that I've seen my ex with my friend so *shrug. We went to eat at Melbourne Central, then headed to Barcode for 2 games of bowling- in which both Thao and I sucked (they wouldn't allow bumpers!!!), a few games of pool and airhockey! Watched "Don't Mess with the Zohan" which was hilarious, and then went to eat again before going to work.

           Lunch with Maroulla and Lynnie: at Heidelberg. The waitress thought we were freaks lol! Great time catching up with the girls especially Maroulla because I haven't seen her since the last week of the semester. Lynnie took me to the Pines to search for Thao's present, and totally missed the bus afterwards :(

           Upcoming events: Martinis and Manicures with (hopefully) Lynnie, Nat, Steph, and Hong; Luna Park with sis and maybe with Thao & her lil sisters, Missa and Carla; taking Helen to the movies and to the art4youth exhibition; job interviews; hospital appointments; movies with the bf; dinner with highschool girls; a party somewhere in the holidays; karaoke with the neuro peeps; Landmark on the 18th, 19th, 20th and the 22nd

...Procrastinating...

2008-06-03T00:33:09Z

Some funny moments:

[Work]
Caroline: She (the boss) asked if I diet... then whooped out her massive ring.
Thuong: I wonder what size she is, I think about a 12-14.
Me: No way, I think she is bigger.
Thuong: Are you serious? She doesn't look that big.
Me: Yeah, my mum is chubby and she's a 12-14, so I think the lady is bigger
Thuong: Like a 14-16?
Me: Yeah I reckon, how funny would it be if we asked her....(silence)...This conversation is SO weird.
Caroline: (laughs) I was wondering when you guys will realise that.

David: Yeah, we talked about circumcision in class and the year 11's didn't approve of my humour.
Me: What? It was meant to be funny?!?

Hai: When is it ok to fart in front of your partner?
Thuong: Haha, who cares. I've been with my boyfriend for 3 years, and now I just don't care.
Me: It's always okay to fart in front of your partner.
Hai: WHATTTT? Do you have farting competitions with your boyfriend or something?!

Me: Can I borrow some of your chairs?
Hai: Yeah sure, go for it. You can borrow as many as you like.
Me: OKAY! *takes 2 chairs and comes back for more*

David: Johnny Depp hot, or Harrison Ford hot?
All the girls: There is no such thing as Harrison Ford hot.

[Random]

Thi: I'm having a discussion with Blair about farting. What do you think about farting? (How funny, these farting convos starts to appear everywhere)
Me: I'm absolutely okay with it, I always tell Sean when I need to fart so he can run away.
Thi: I make Blair go under the doona so I can trap him before letting out gas!
Me: Oh my, is that how you show your love to your boyfriend? I should do that sometime.
Thi: You have to be careful or else he can escape.

Me: Rob, I think it's about time we take you asian clubbing when you come to Melbourne!
Rob (laughs): I don't want to club an Asian! I don't want to hook up with an asian!
Me: What? Who said so?
Rob: Didn't you?
Me: No I meant go clubbing with a room filled with asians...you know, they have asian nights?
Rob (laughs): Are they called racist?
Me: No, it's called individuality ;)

Rob: I have to go in 20 minutes to see Kel. I haven't seen her in a while, I only saw her when I got back from Mt Isa.
Me: OH MY GOD, it has been 2 days!
Rob: Yeah, it has been a while...
Me: Ahhh the honeymoon stage ;) ;) OoOoHhHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Rob: Shut up you practically-married woman!!!
Me: Be nice to me, I'm going to be your future cousin-in-law...(silence)...omg I am practically married.
Rob: MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

[Hong's 21st]

Thao: OMFG, you're wearing a suit...with a sparkly tie.
Ben: It's not sparkly!
Me: I can see the sparkles way from here and I'm blind!

Ben: Can you wait, I'm getting a drink for myself.
Me: NOOOOOO I WANT MY NEURO SHOT NOW!
Thao (laughs with the scary bartender): Yep, she's an alcoholic.

Ben: 151 yeah? Another Absinthe? Jagerbomb? Let's get jagerbombs.
Me: I can't drink anymore...
Ben: 151 yeah? yeah? Absinthe? Jagerbomb? Yeah yeah?

Me: I think I'm trapped...I can't untangle myself
(Missa tries to help me)
Missa: Oh no, now I'm trapped...

[Y's 21st]

Veronica: I didn't see Y there!
Me: Is it because she's soooo tiny? *runs away from Y*
Sarah: *laughs* Armpit level *joins Christine to run away from Y*

Sean: (showing off his Vietnamese to Viv): Yeah I can say "Chao, co co khoe khong?" (Hello, how are you?) and "Nuoc Mam" (Fish Sauce).
Viv: What a way to impress the mother-in-law, "Hi. How are you? Fish sauce?"

Sean: What is Viv doing?
Me: I've seen this many times...she's thinking.
Sean: She keeps staring at the ceiling.
Viv: I'm trying to remember the speech!
Me: You should've seen her in high school. It was a daily routine.
Viv: Yep, I memorised all of my essays before my SACs.
Sean (confused): By staring at the wall?

Y: I have to keep pulling my dress up (She was wearing a boobtube dress) or else the boyfriend will kill me.
Me and Sean: Why?
Y: I was wearing a shirt and didn't wear a bra, and I had to bend down to wash the dishes.
Me: So...?
Y: Ronnie wasn't too happy about it but being a "man", he didn't tell me about it. You couldn't see my boobs anyway, you just can tell I didn't wear a bra.
Sean: And?
Y: After a while, I questioned about it and he told me about it.
Y: ...and then I started laughing.
Me: AHAHA, you loser.
Y: Ronnie wouldn't talk to me for a good 2 hours because I wore a low-necked top. What a pansy!

[Studying]

Me: OMG Husna, why are you drinking a 2L bottle of Pepsi?!
Husna: Excuse me, it's only 1L...and you have a bottle of V, so don't tell me off.
Me: But look at how big your bottle is compared to mine!
Husna: Yeah, your bottle is 300mL, it's quite close to my litre...
Me: Erm, it's less than 1/3 of your Pepsi...actually it's only 250mL, so it's only 1/4 of your drink.
Husna: SHHHHHHHH, shut up. I've been good. This will last for a long time...
Me (stares)
Husna: Well, it will last til dinner.

Missa: What's "L-E-G"?
Me: Missa, it's "leg".

Ben: These swiss rolls are pretty good.
Me: Yeah it does (ate 2 and up to her 3rd one).
Me: (Bites on the 3rd one) OH MY GOD, I can't eat this. It's too sweetttttttt!
Ben: Are you serious?
Me: Uhhuh, do you want it? I don't want it anymore. You can have it.
Ben: You just ate half of it and now you're offering it to me?
Me: Yep, I'm so generous. Now eat it up bitch!

Husna: Girls, I want nice skin, what's the deal?
Missa: Errr...cut the coke.
Husna: Besides that?
Missa: You're doomed then.

...Time to let go...

2008-05-28T23:43:46Z

I've decided to let go of all my mistakes and issues in the past 6 months.

I'm going to start fresh.

That means:
1. Find a new job- Yep, I have my meeting with the boss today for my new job, being a promotional advocate ( I think that is what it's called).
2. New study habits- I'm actually going to study properly this time.
3. Chill out at home a bit more- Do things I wanted to do but never had the chance. This includes: learning how to cook, redecorate my room, watch dvds and heaps of it, learn some dance moves :)
4. Make new friends
5. Help my family out with housework
6. Starlight Children's Foundation

chrizza @ 2008-05-20T23:48:00

2008-05-20T13:51:07Z

I hope he'll be okay :( :(

...Shopping spree...

2008-05-05T09:25:05Z

I thought I deserved a bit of a shopping spree today; have been feeling shit lately, so buying stuff wouldn't hurt right?
WRONG. It hurt my bank account and I still feel shit.
I bought my mother the Tresor (Lancome) perfume for Mother's Day , which cost a fortune (well $170 but that's nearly 2 weeks of my pay). Then I got sucked in and bought the Lancome's Prestige Collection for $60 (apparently valued at $269). It contains the full-size Hynose Mascara (wooh, collection of mascaras), full-size Colour Focus Mono powder, full-size Bronxer Magic Brush (I needed a bronzer, my Sportgirl one ran out haha), 2 coloured lipsticks, a 7mL juicy tubes (always wanted one) and eye pencil.
Not only that, I bought the new Mariah Carey's album (which I've realised that the cd is probably the reason why I'm still feeling crap- a majority of her songs are break-up songs lol) & Britney's Greatest Hits- which cost 10 bucks. Wooh, love Britney.

There are so many stuff I want to buy, yet so little time & so little money.

I wish I was a millionaire :( :(

...Wil Anderson...

2008-04-06T13:34:34Z

First of you, thankyou Bek & your group of friends for buying me these tickets to see Wil Anderson. It was awesome & I loved it- I really appreciate it!

If I didn't meet Sean & if he wasn't my soulmate/boyfriend/lover, I would marry Wil Anderson. You'll understand why, in a few minutes.

When Wil Anderson walked onto the stage, I'm quite sure everyone expected to see the wisecracking, fast-talking and slightly arrogant comedian, who likes to bag the shit out of John Howard and George Bush. However, he was a little more subdued and confessed he was planning to not run shows this year because of his recent split with his long-term girlfriend (6 and a half years to be precise).

However, Wil took his misfortune in his stride- by playing out the bewildered new single man. He spoke openly about anything from his drunken supermarket encounter with Larry Emder "LARRRRRRRRRYYYYYYYYYYYY, LOOK EVERYONE, THAT'S LARRRRRYYYYYYYY" (would love getting drunk with him!) to his penchant for eating icing sugar in his trackies while watching Wife Swap.

He was the usual comedian who unleashed numerous cringe-worthy jokes about genitals, dirty sex talk and even abortion. His commentary on intelligent design (and his subsequent hilarious disproving of the existence of God) was AWESOME.

Despite all the laughs (I had tears in my eyes & had a sore throat after the show), Wil Anderson showed a more fragile and heartfelt side, and it made me wonder.

He thought he was going to spend his life with his now ex-girlfriend, but now he's single. He mentioned about communication & how important it was (through his funny comments). He acted out how life is so unpredictable at times & it's important to talk to someone about your problems instead of bottling things up. The politics was mentioned (you'll LOVE this comedian Jen), and how it's fine to be the real you (even when people don't like the real you). I've learnt a lot in an hour through a comedy show, and am looking forward to seeing another funny show in the the near future.

Cheers.

...A bit of motivation, a bit of inspiration...

2008-03-26T13:10:13Z

Take a 10-30 minute walk every day. And while you walk, smile. It is the ultimate anti-depressant.

Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day. Buy a lock if you have to.
Buy a DVR and tape your late night shows and get more sleep.
When you wake up in the morning complete the following statement,
"'My purpose is to __________ today."
Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy.
Play more games and read more books than you did in 2007.
Make time to practice meditation, yoga, tai chi, and prayer. They provide us with daily fuel for our busy lives.
Spend time with people over the age of 70 and under the age of 6.
Dream more while you are awake.
. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
. Drink green tea and plenty of water. Eat blueberries, wild Alaskan salmon, broccoli, almonds & walnuts.
. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
. Clear clutter from your house, your car, your desk and let new and flowing energy into your life.
. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip, energy vampires, issues of the past, negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a college kid with a maxed out
charge card.
Smile and laugh more. It will keep the energy vampires away.
Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
Frame every so-called disaster with these words: 'In five years, will this matter?'
Forgive everyone for everything.
What other people think of you is none of your business.
However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.
Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
The best is yet to come.
No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
Do the right thing!
Call your family often, or email them to death, ("Hey I'm think'n of ya!")
Each night before you go to bed complete the following statements:
I am thankful for __________. Today I accomplished _________.
Remember that you are too blessed to be stressed.
Enjoy the ride. Remember this is not Disney World and you certainly don't want a fast pass.
You only have one ride through life so make the most of it and enjoy the ride.

Thanks to Bui, who I stole this from. It's an inspiration and it's a motivation. When you're feeling crappy, at least you can look at this and smile. You're so much luckier than many others in the world, and life is worth living for.

Cheers.

...A summary of my trip...

2008-03-25T05:02:01Z

Thursday
I went to uni to work on my assignment, before catching up with Jen, Thao and Missa at the Eagle Bar. I finally gave the present to Missa and we discussed about make up and our facial/massage date end of the semester :) After that, I headed to work and dealed with horrible kids and instead of spending the 2 hours teaching them maths & english (which I did for a bit), I taught them MANNERS.
After work, my family headed off to Blairgowrie, a town next to Sorrento. The others reached there before us, so we got there by ourselves. I must say I was not impressed with my uncle's GPRS or whatever it's called. It showed us the long route, when it's not meant to! At the end, I read the map (which was quite a success) and we managed to got there....

until we found out we reached the office/register instead of the place we were meant to stay. Whoops.

It took us another 10-15 minutes to reach our destination, by then it was 11pm and we headed to bed.

Friday
All of us had breakfast before heading to the beach (unfortunately I can't remember which one, because we went to quite a few!) and took some nice photos. We then headed to Port Sea & Port Nepean. All of us went on some sort of mini train to get to Port Nepean and learnt a bit about the place, and the World War I and II. The surroundings were beautiful and we discovered the tunnels that were used during the war periods. We headed back to Sorrento, bought fish and chips, then went to a nearby park for lunch. After lunch, we headed back home, chilled out, went for a swim at the pool, did some work, watched tv, went for a walk nearby and went to bed.

Saturday
Saturday was the day when we visited a few more beaches, visited a few shops (I managed to buy a nice leopard-ish see through top for $25 when it was originally $100- a brand from tigerlily I think) and then went off to a Strawberry Farm at Sunny Ridges. We were allowed to pick our own strawberries and mum, being the greedy person she is, tried to overload the packet and managed to squish half of the strawberries :| Meanwhile the kids managed to eat half of them, hehe. I can't remember what we did after that, we attempted fishing but failed miserably. Oh yes, we had dinner at the place where we stayed, and a lot of us managed to get drunk after a few drinks of BICARDI BREEZERS. If Lynnie knew about this, she'll be happy to hear that she's not the only one who passed out having a bicardi breezer. My cousin wanted to chuck after having one drink, and my mum was off her face drinking. Marcus (my cousin-in-law) and I laughed at all of them, because unlike them- we were sober :)

Sunday
We went to Arthur's Seat and took some pictures. We then went to the Enchanted Maze nearby, which was a lot of fun. I went with my sister, cousin, his pregnant wife, their daughter and my other second cousin, Ruben :) We managed to get lost in most of the mazes and saw nice pretty gardens along the way. There was also a small animal farm and we touched the geese, patted the chicks and stroke some sheep :P After having dinner, most of us went to Sorrento for some ice cream loving...and I saw Adam nearby! We had a quick chat, then soon headed to the beach for a nice walk :) After that, we went to La Porchetta, ordered some pizzas and brought it home to eat before heading to bed.

Monday
After packing up, we realised some IDIOTS stole all our tyre caps because all of ours went missing! :( We headed off to Sorrrento's Ferry and travelled to Queenscliff. We stayed there for a while, walking along the beach (yet again) and the kids went crazy on the jumping castle and some clown machine game. Special mention goes to Loleta, my second half Thai cousin who's not even 2, who showed no fear when it comes to jumping castles. The brave girl climbed that huge tall jumping castle, slided down (massive slide) on her tummy in a very speedy manner and started laughing. She had so much fun, she tried other positions in sliding down and didn't want to leave.

We headed to Geelong for lunch (we went to Smorgys lol), attacked the food, and stayed there way after the closing time...whoops. We walked by the bay, went on a mini train ride around the beach, discovered some yummy ice cream before heading sweet home :)

...gimme gimme MORE...

2008-03-08T10:38:08Z

Wow, 2 weeks into uni and already, things are getting out of hand. I don't know how the others are managing, but studying part-time is killing me already. The places we have to travel to conduct interviews with the clients/clinicians are ridiculously far, and there are way too many hurdles in one subject. Work is also eating my time, but despite my complaints, I'm actually enjoying life at the moment.

We went to Epworth Hospital last week to interview a client, and it was so interesting to know more about his life after his trauma. He gave me some hope about life. Sometimes I think to myself- geez, my life is so shit- and then listening to such stories like his, gives me more inspiration and motivation in life. If someone who has TBI can be enjoy life to the fullest with no regrets, why can't I? Another thing that interests me was his upcoming art exhibition. I've always been a fan of art, and his artwork will be magnificant, especially for a person who can't feel anything on his right side of his body.

That also reminds me that art4youth's exhibition is in june/july- and we're still waiting for applications. If anyone knows any high school students who enjoys art, let me know :)

Love life is going really well at the moment, we had our iffy moment 2 weeks ago but we discussed about it all night and everything is perfectly fine now :) We're soppier than ever, and as cliche as it may sound, I hope we do spend our lives together.

Jen's party was held last night, and it was so much fun!!! It was a good uni gathering, and dancing our night away! :) Should have them a bit more often :)

Anyhow, I better get off and do some reading.

Peace out!

chrizza @ 2008-02-22T22:35:00

2008-02-22T11:44:27Z

Uni next week, and for the first time ever, I only have to go to uni for about 8 hours worth of lectures. I'm sure going to make good use with the spare times:- I have to try and get motivated to go to the gym every week for a few hours. That's probably one of the few reasons why I bought the Guild. When I go to uni on Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays- I'll use the spare time to make an effort to get some work done. I know I won't get much done at home, especially with Helen needing my help when it comes to homework. I can't blame her for the lack of studying or me not passing, because it's not her fault that she has a severe language disorder. However, sometimes I can't help but think how life will be so different when she doesn't have a disorder.
I have to be determined. I can't let myself stay in uni for a zillion years because I failed year by year. By then, they'll kick me out! As much as I love the girls, I'll try and not get distracted during class. I don't think anyone realise how important it is to listen in those classes until they fail. I guess I've learnt it the hard way. There are a lot of small goals I want to achieve- I hate the word failure. I know it's just a way of success, but that word sounds horrible.
I guess it's time to say goodbye to holidays, and hello to uni life. That doesn't mean I'll study 24 7, but at least I'll put in the effort to study for a couple of hours each day- hello, we do need some form of social life!
:)

:)

2008-02-17T11:47:59Z

Mum kept bugging me about my part-time job lately: she wanted me to work more at Nam's. Hell to that! I can't even manage a day working at Nam's, let alone working an extra whole day. Mum called me lazy, unambitious, incompetent. If I was that lazy, I wouldn't even bother rocking up to work. If I was unambitious, then I wouldn't even bother enrolling myself to uni. If I was incompetent, I wouldn't manage making $100 looking after kids.
It wouldn't be too daunting if I had to teach a higher class, but because I'm stuck with the Preppies, Grade 1's and Grade 2's...my life is pretty much doomed. I NEED A CHANGE!

Yes, they are cute...but they can't sit still. I don't blame them. If I had to go through 3 hours of Nam's on a weekend, I'd try to get out asap. They can't shut up, they can't count, they can't read, they can't do anything but run off to the toilet and making a mess. To them, I'm their 'casual' mother. I make sure they do their work, I make sure that they're safe (geez, one kid decided to bolt out of class without permission, running everywhere at the centre), I make sure they don't have boogey on their faces, I make sure they get fed...I guess it's preparation for the future? It totally sucks.

So, I've decided to enrol into a few small courses. I'll get the experience, do something a bit different and spontaneous, and also get the certificate/degree which will be good for part-time jobs. It can even be a back-up if anything horrible happens to my speech degree. PLUS I have all this spare time first semester, and I hate not being able to achieve anything, so why not?

So I've decided I'm going to enrol into a medical reception course- 2 Saturdays from 8.30-5pm; maybe I can find a medical reception job to replace Nam's. I will enrol myself into a Diploma of Professional Counselling (major: child development) which will help with my speech degree and as a backup. When I was young, I wanted to help people through counselling, so I wouldn't mind doing this course. It's online so I can take my time.

I joined the Guild and FREE GYM. Trying to get fit- and maybe not bail out from going to the gym like last time with yoga. I want to join dancing too! Always enjoyed watching dancing performances and dance movies (centre stage!!!), and now I'm hooked to SYTYCD (go JD!! and Kassy)...might actually try out some dancing.

I should take up guitar lessons. I should save money. There are a lot of shoulds...I wonder if I'll manage to complete my "should" list by the end of the year :)

..Happy Valentine's!...

2008-02-14T12:58:01Z

Happy Valentine's Day <3 :)

I had heaps of fun today. It wasn't anything I expected. I was 15 minutes late to my own date, ran with heels (and had blisters after that), missed out on watching "Definitely, Maybe" (Ryan Reynolds- hot!) and ended up watching "No Country for Old Men". If you like violence and random killing, you'll like this movie. I spent most of my time hiding away from the screen...it wasn't exactly the romantic Valentine's movie and I seriously didn't get the ending!! We then went to an indian restaurant on Queens Street, it's really nice and was packed. The staff all knew who Sean was- it was as if he's a well-known superstar! We had our curry and I nearly died from eating some of his. Maybe my handling with curry isn't that great yet. We then went to Federation Square, sat by the river, chatting, the usual mooshy stuff and gave each other presents. It was a great time, even though it wasn't as romantic, but I had fun and I was very happy :) Love being myself and free :)

I have been doing a lot of "catching up" with people I haven't seen in ages. On Monday, I went to have lunch with Sean and afterwards, headed to Borders. I bumped into Y, who I haven't seen since Viv's b'day, and we decided to have coffee at Gloria Jeans and had a huge catch up! On Tuesday, I caught up with Oscar- he wanted to go shopping to buy a present for a girl he liked. Soon after, I caught up with Danica- a friend from tutoring in year 12, and we went to Spaghetti Tree- twas awesome, Maccas, and Max Brenners...so much for a restaurant crawl but we didn't have enough time and were too full lol. Yesterday I had lunch with Sean at Lounge, then caught up with David. We went to watch "Fool's Gold", it was a bit soppy at parts and it was weird having couples making out around us. We went to Nam Loongs and then went to Myer to sit at the couches and talk :) Tomorrow, I'm going to have lunch with Amy and then dinner with the asians from Lowther. Love catching up, prefer it than actual clubbing or something like that.

I won't talk about the serious stuff in this entry, I'll talk about it tomorrow. Cheers

chrizza @ 2008-01-02T08:38:00

2008-01-02T01:52:04Z

Just a quick update:
- Went to Thailand for 5 days and rode on elephants, held a cobra, bought heaps of jewellery, saw a crocodile show and went to see a dragshow cabaret! (Oh, and perved on this HOT HOT guy who was half french, half viet! Loved the accent....shhh, don't tell Sean)
-Stayed at Ho Chi Minh for 5 nights- went to way too many shops, ate way too much food, went to ridiculous theme parks- some rides were so freaky that my cousin had to carry my sister out of the ride, went to ChinaTown and it was awful LOL
-Headed to Da Nang for a night, and Hue for another 2-3 nights--> went to heaps of pagodas, ate way too much food, took over a cafe (imagine 25 of us ordering food), limited shopping, went to the Kings' palaces and dressed as kings and queens, wooh! Also went to an orphanage and it was so sad to see so many kids without parents...
-Currently at Hanoi and leaving to head back to Saigon at 3pm: also took over another cafe- the food weren't too nice so one of the guys from the tour had 4 bowls with him because we can't finish the food off!! It was hilarious. Also went to a few more pagodas...and went to Ha Long Bay and stayed there for the night--> ate way too many food, danced way too much, slept a lot too, and went to discover the amazing caves at Ha Long Bay.
-Future plans for the rest of the trip: heading back to Saigon and stay over at my grandma's for a week before heading to Da Lat and Nha Trang for 5 nights, then off to my dad's side and attend my cousin's wedding...

Goals for this year:
- Try to enrol myself into a Diploma degree (for languages)
- Pass uni D'UH
- Save money to go to NZ with Sean :D
- Be more focussed in life
-Try to be fit and looking HOT HOT HOT for Sean's mother's wedding lol