Apparently I also wrote a poem about this-
"Me no money, me no care
Me just marry a millionaire
If he dies, me no cry
Me just marry another guy"

I just can't stop laughing. I thought of our good o' rich men jokes and had a bit of a giggle. My friend then concluded, "Dude you were like 10 years old, and you were already thinking about hooking up with some rich guy LOL" HAHA superficial much?

Thought that snippet would make you smile during this stressful time called clinics!!

Very content with life at the moment.

Spent heaps of time with the family, lunches with close friends, hugs and kisses from the significant other, made gifts for my mother, great marks at school, passed my first set of clinics, baked cakes, ate heaps of yummy food and recovering from the cold/flu! Not to mention, I have a potential job offer when I graduate!

Looking forward to the next few weeks- day trip, heaps of movies, spending heaps of time with the boyfriend, dinner parties, birthday gatherings, more good food, more time with the family, painting and catching up on assignments and studying.

In 66 days, I will be turning 21 and by the 66^th day (hopefully with my right calculations- it’ll be on the 29^th of March) I should have accomplished my following 21 deeds that I have set out:

1) Learn to play an instrument (besides the piano)
2) Have $5,000 in my account by the end of March
3) Go on a road trip
4) Have a bubble bath (even if I don’t fit in my bath tub)
5) Learn how to cook my favourite food (this is hard since I love nearly every food there is, so I will learn how to cook my top 3: making sushi (properly), pasta and of course, STEAK)
6) Visit a zoo
7) Convince my other half to take me to Melba
8) Go to a drive-in theatre (Moonlight Cinemas counts as well)
9) Make a full of myself at the karaoke bar
10) Donate my old clothes (which is ¼ accomplished- I gave a lot of my clothes from my baby/toddler/primary school years to my second cousin)
11) Start and finish a painting canvas (my high school teacher would be so proud of me)
12) Leave my old job (goodbye Whatever & maybe Nam’s), and start a new job
13) Watch 2 movies that I have not seen but supposing everyone has. (I’ve decided I’m going to watch “Shawshank Redemption” AND “Breakfast at Tiffany’s”)
14) Buy something I can’t afford-( hellooooo Alannah Hill & every store in GPO)...yet still manage to keep the $5000 in my account.
15) Get another piercing- such a wild child ;)
16) Bring my camera whenever I leave the house and take heaps of photos...even when I’m heading to the milk bar.
17) Have a girl’s day out and do girly things (that includes giving each other pedicures and facials, bake cupcakes, watch girly movies and sing girly songs)
18) Start eating healthy food- so that means starting bringing homemade food to work instead of buying MacDonalds, KFC, sushi, Subway and who knows what...

19) Go to a town/suburb/city I’ve never been to (I finally know where Elsternwick is LOL)
20) Read a classic without falling asleep (excluding Romeo and Juliet- that’s the shiz)
21) Catch up on How I Met Your Mother and learn some of the most memorable quotes so far

I've decided to let go of all my mistakes and issues in the past 6 months.

I'm going to start fresh.

That means: 
1. Find a new job- Yep, I have my meeting with the boss today for my new job, being a promotional advocate ( I think that is what it's called).
2. New study habits- I'm actually going to study properly this time.
3. Chill out at home a bit more- Do things I wanted to do but never had the chance. This includes: learning how to cook, redecorate my room, watch dvds and heaps of it, learn some dance moves :)
4. Make new friends
5. Help my family out with housework
6. Starlight Children's Foundation

I thought I deserved a bit of a shopping spree today; have been feeling shit lately, so buying stuff wouldn't hurt right?
WRONG. It hurt my bank account and I still feel shit.
I bought my mother the Tresor (Lancome) perfume for Mother's Day , which cost a fortune (well $170 but that's nearly 2 weeks of my pay). Then I got sucked in and bought the Lancome's Prestige Collection for $60 (apparently valued at $269). It contains the full-size Hynose Mascara (wooh, collection of mascaras), full-size Colour Focus Mono powder, full-size Bronxer Magic Brush (I needed a bronzer, my Sportgirl one ran out haha), 2 coloured lipsticks, a 7mL juicy tubes (always wanted one) and eye pencil. 
Not only that, I bought the new Mariah Carey's album (which I've realised that the cd is probably the reason why I'm still feeling crap- a majority of her songs are break-up songs lol) & Britney's Greatest Hits- which cost 10 bucks. Wooh, love Britney.

There are so many stuff I want to buy, yet so little time & so little money. 

I wish I was a millionaire :( :(

First of you, thankyou Bek & your group of friends for buying me these tickets to see Wil Anderson. It was awesome & I loved it- I really appreciate it!

If I didn't meet Sean & if he wasn't my soulmate/boyfriend/lover, I would marry Wil Anderson. You'll understand why, in a few minutes.

When Wil Anderson walked onto the stage, I'm quite sure everyone expected to see the wisecracking, fast-talking and slightly arrogant comedian, who likes to bag the shit out of John Howard and George Bush. However, he was a little more subdued and confessed he was planning to not run shows this year because of his recent split with his long-term girlfriend (6 and a half years to be precise).

However,  Wil took his misfortune in his stride- by playing out the bewildered new single man. He spoke openly about anything from his drunken supermarket encounter with Larry Emder "LARRRRRRRRRYYYYYYYYYYYY, LOOK EVERYONE, THAT'S LARRRRRYYYYYYYY"  (would love getting drunk with him!) to his penchant for eating icing sugar in his trackies while watching Wife Swap.

He was the usual comedian who unleashed numerous cringe-worthy jokes about genitals, dirty sex talk and even abortion. His commentary on intelligent design (and his subsequent hilarious disproving of the existence of God) was AWESOME.

Despite all the laughs (I had tears in my eyes & had a sore throat after the show), Wil Anderson showed a more fragile and heartfelt side, and it made me wonder.

He thought he was going to spend his life with his now ex-girlfriend, but now he's single. He mentioned about communication & how important it was (through his funny comments). He acted out how life is so unpredictable at times & it's important to talk to someone about your problems instead of  bottling things up. The politics was mentioned (you'll LOVE this comedian Jen), and how it's fine to be the real you (even when people don't like the real you). I've learnt a lot in an hour through a comedy show, and am looking forward to seeing another funny show in the the near future.

Cheers.

Take a 10-30 minute walk every day. And while you walk, smile. It is the ultimate anti-depressant. 

1. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day. Buy a lock if you have to.
2. Buy a DVR and tape your late night shows and get more sleep.
3. When you wake up in the morning complete the following statement,
   "'My purpose is to __________ today."
4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy.
5. Play more games and read more books than you did in 2007.
6. Make time to practice meditation, yoga, tai chi, and prayer. They provide us with daily fuel for our busy lives.
7. Spend time with people over the age of 70 and under the age of 6.
8. Dream more while you are awake.
9. . Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
10. . Drink green tea and plenty of water. Eat blueberries, wild Alaskan salmon, broccoli, almonds & walnuts.
11. . Try to make at least three people smile each day.
12. . Clear clutter from your house, your car, your desk and let new and flowing energy into your life.
13. . Don't waste your precious energy on gossip, energy vampires, issues of the past, negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
14. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
15. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a college kid with a maxed out
    charge card.
16. Smile and laugh more. It will keep the energy vampires away.
17. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
18. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
19. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
20. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
21. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
22. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
23. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
24. Frame every so-called disaster with these words: 'In five years, will this matter?'
25. Forgive everyone for everything.
26. What other people think of you is none of your business.
27. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
28. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.
29. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
30. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
31. The best is yet to come.
32. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
33. Do the right thing!
34. Call your family often, or email them to death, ("Hey I'm think'n of ya!")
35. Each night before you go to bed complete the following statements:
    I am thankful for __________. Today I accomplished _________.
36. Remember that you are too blessed to be stressed.
37. Enjoy the ride. Remember this is not Disney World and you certainly don't want a fast pass.
    You only have one ride through life so make the most of it and enjoy the ride.

Thursday
I went to uni to work on my assignment, before catching up with Jen, Thao and Missa at the Eagle Bar. I finally gave the present to Missa and we discussed about make up and our facial/massage date end of the semester :) After that, I headed to work and dealed with horrible kids and instead of spending the 2 hours teaching them maths & english (which I did for a bit), I taught them MANNERS. 
After work, my family headed off to Blairgowrie, a town next to Sorrento. The others reached there before us, so we got there by ourselves. I must say I was not impressed with my uncle's GPRS or whatever it's called. It showed us the long route, when it's not meant to! At the end, I read the map (which was quite a success) and we managed to got there....

until we found out we reached the office/register instead of the place we were meant to stay. Whoops.

It took us another 10-15 minutes to reach our destination, by then it was 11pm and we headed to bed.

Friday
All of us had breakfast before heading to the beach (unfortunately I can't remember which one, because we went to quite a few!) and took some nice photos. We then headed to Port Sea & Port Nepean. All of us went on some sort of mini train to get to Port Nepean and learnt a bit about the place, and the World War I and II. The surroundings were beautiful and we discovered the tunnels that were used during the war periods. We headed back to Sorrento, bought fish and chips, then went to a nearby park for lunch. After lunch, we headed back home, chilled out, went for a swim at the pool, did some work, watched tv, went for a walk nearby and went to bed.

Saturday
Saturday was the day when we visited a few more beaches, visited a few shops (I managed to buy a nice leopard-ish see through top for $25 when it was originally $100- a brand from tigerlily I think) and then went off to a Strawberry Farm at Sunny Ridges. We were allowed to pick our own strawberries and mum, being the greedy person she is, tried to overload the packet and managed to squish half of the strawberries :| Meanwhile the kids managed to eat half of them, hehe. I can't remember what we did after that, we attempted fishing but failed miserably.  Oh yes, we had dinner at the place where we stayed, and a lot of us managed to get drunk after a few drinks of BICARDI BREEZERS. If Lynnie knew about this, she'll be happy to hear that she's not the only one who passed out having a bicardi breezer. My cousin wanted to chuck after having one drink, and my mum was off her face drinking. Marcus (my cousin-in-law) and I laughed at all of them, because unlike them- we were sober :)

Sunday
We went to Arthur's Seat and took some pictures. We then went to the Enchanted Maze nearby, which was a lot of fun. I went with my sister, cousin, his pregnant wife, their daughter and my other second cousin, Ruben :) We managed to get lost in most of the mazes and saw nice pretty gardens along the way. There was also a small animal farm and we touched the geese, patted the chicks and stroke some sheep :P After having dinner, most of us went to Sorrento for some ice cream loving...and I saw Adam nearby! We had a quick chat, then soon headed to the beach for a nice walk :) After that, we went to La Porchetta, ordered some pizzas and brought it home to eat before heading to bed.

Monday
After packing up, we realised some IDIOTS stole all our tyre caps because all of ours went missing! :( We headed off to Sorrrento's Ferry and travelled to Queenscliff. We stayed there for a while, walking along the beach (yet again) and the kids went crazy on the jumping castle and some clown machine game. Special mention goes to Loleta, my second half Thai cousin who's not even 2, who showed no fear when it comes to jumping castles. The brave girl climbed that huge tall jumping castle, slided down (massive slide) on her tummy in a very speedy manner and started laughing. She had so much fun, she tried other positions in sliding down and didn't want to leave.

We headed to Geelong for lunch (we went to Smorgys lol), attacked the food, and stayed there way after the closing time...whoops. We walked by the bay, went on a mini train ride around the beach, discovered some yummy ice cream before heading sweet home :)

Wow, 2 weeks into uni and already, things are getting out of hand. I don't know how the others are managing, but studying part-time is killing me already. The places we have to travel to conduct interviews with the clients/clinicians are ridiculously far, and there are way too many hurdles in one subject. Work is also eating my time, but despite my complaints, I'm actually enjoying life at the moment. 

We went to Epworth Hospital last week to interview a client, and it was so interesting to know more about his life after his trauma. He gave me some hope about life. Sometimes I think to myself- geez, my life is so shit- and then listening to such stories like his, gives me more inspiration and motivation in life. If someone who has TBI can be enjoy life to the fullest with no regrets, why can't I? Another thing that interests me was his upcoming art exhibition. I've always been a fan of art, and his artwork will be magnificant, especially for a person who can't feel anything on his right side of his body.

That also reminds me that art4youth's exhibition is in june/july- and we're still waiting for applications. If anyone knows any high school students who enjoys art, let me know :) 

Love life is going really well at the moment, we had our iffy moment 2 weeks ago but we discussed about it all night and everything is perfectly fine now :) We're soppier than ever, and as cliche as it may sound, I hope we do spend our lives together. 

Jen's party was held last night, and it was so much fun!!! It was a good uni gathering, and dancing our night away! :) Should have them a bit more often :)

Anyhow, I better get off and do some reading.

Peace out!

Uni next week, and for the first time ever, I only have to go to uni for about 8 hours worth of lectures. I'm sure going to make good use with the spare times:- I have to try and get motivated to go to the gym every week for a few hours. That's probably one of the few reasons why I bought the Guild. When I go to uni on Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays- I'll use the spare time to make an effort to get some work done. I know I won't get much done at home, especially with Helen needing my help when it comes to homework. I can't blame her for the lack of studying or me not passing, because it's not her fault that she has a severe language disorder. However, sometimes I can't help but think how life will be so different when she doesn't have a disorder. 
I have to be determined. I can't let myself stay in uni for a zillion years because I failed year by year. By then, they'll kick me out! As much as I love the girls, I'll try and not get distracted during class. I don't think anyone realise how important it is to listen in those classes until they fail. I guess I've learnt it the hard way. There are a lot of small goals I want to achieve- I hate the word failure. I know it's just a way of success, but that word sounds horrible. 
I guess it's time to say goodbye to holidays, and hello to uni life. That doesn't mean I'll study 24 7, but at least I'll put in the effort to study for a couple of hours each day- hello, we do need some form of social life!
:)